hehe i am actually updating today well anyways xanga is ghetto so i shall leave and good bye :)

shari

uhhh lol... im updating for LAZO... this nutcase whos making me update.. .idk what to say except that its BORING at home.. : D o well ttyl..
btw christian <3 ahaha if u kno wut i mean :X

To those I love and those who love me....

When I am gone, release me, let me go.
I have so many things to see and do.
You must not tie yourself to me with tears,
but be thankful for our many beautiful years.

I gave you my love.
And you can only guess how much you gave to me in happiness.
I thank you for the love you have shown,
but not it is time that I must travel alone.

So grieve awhile for me, if grieve you must,
then let your grief be comforted by trust.
It's only for a time that we must part
so bless the memories within you heart.

I won't be far away, for life goes on
so if you need me call, and I will come.
Though you can't see or touch me, i will be near
and if you listen with your heart, you will hear
all my love around you so soft and clear.

And then, when you must come this way alone,
I'll greet you with a smile and say, "Welcome home."

<3, S h a R i

I Don't Know Why
By: Unknown Author

10th Grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called best friend. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and i knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th Grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As i sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior Year

The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go." Well , i didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she doesn't think of me like that, and I know it. The she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before i could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanter her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and knew it. Before everyone went , she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. The she lifetd her head from my shoulder and said, "You're my best friend, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanter her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks!" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary enty she had wrote in her high school years. This what it read:

"I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I 'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!"

"I wish i did too.." I thought to myself, and I cried.

mann i wanna cry jus reading that :/ i knwo how that person feels.. but hes not my best friend haha hes jus  a guy i see at school.. but shit i wish he would jus ask me already shit... stop playing hard to get and stuff :/ but o well ill write laters thought i put this up cuz its sad and made me CRY hahaa :(

<3, S h a R i  = )

BLaH BLaH BLaH... damm school is really neat i guess.. haha i only say that cuz hoo finally i find a guy at aiea high =).. but umm idk if he knows i like him :X it seems like hes playing hard to get but o wellies.. today was pretty boring science we made ROCK candy =/.. haha and math was hekka boring =/.. and american lit was pretty boring also.. with a fricken alot of gayass hw.. how pathetic.. well bye bye tiMe TO do my HW.. shit...

<3 S h a R i